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Showing posts with label The Looking Glass. Show all posts
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Saturday, December 31, 2016

The Looking Glass: The Best of Times ... The Worst of Times ... Hail, Farewell and Benediction....

by Jennifer Johnston

It was the best of times , it was the worst of times, it was the age of wisdom, it was the age of foolishness, it was the epoch of belief, it was the epoch of incredulity, it was the season of Light, it was the season of Darkness, it was the spring of hope, it was the winter of despair, we had everything before us, we had nothing before us....

So wrote Charles Dickens in his epic, classic novel, A Tale of Two Cities, about the French Revolution (1789-1799), published in 1859, 100 years before we entered Childress High School as Freshmen in 1959. As true and applicable as Dickens' words were when written, as well as to the time and times before they were written, I find myself recalling them often when thinking of the present day, and of all the decades of the lives of the Class of 1963.... And while to some extent those words may have over the years become something of a cliche, I still find them moving, and memorable ... a reflection of times past, and a cautionary prediction of times to come.... 

We grew up in an idyllic, idealized time following World War II, through the 1950s and into the 1960s, when there began to be a great movement for change in this country. The halcyon visions of the 1950s were the TV shows Father Knows Best and Leave It to Beaver, along with "throwback" shows about a fictional Old West which we never knew, and didn't really exist as it was portrayed. Rod Serling's prescient advisory Twilight Zone in 1959 and Gene Roddenberry's ground-breaking and iconic Star Trek in 1966 fired our imaginations to contemplate both the past and the future and how they were and are related. There was a revolution in music which exploded in 1956 with the advent of Elvis Presley and rock and roll, followed by Motown, the British Invasion and others, and which continues to this day in various new forms and styles.

The problems with the aforementioned Father and Beaver and other television shows of that era were that the majority of them did not present an accurate reflection of real life, when women had few to no rights; blacks and other minorities did not enjoy even basic civil rights; birth control and abortion were illegal; and there was no real safety net for the poor, the aged, the disabled, the disadvantaged. Unfortunately, despite many gains and much work by people who noted and were appalled by such inequities, those things have yet to be fully rectified, more than half a century later, regardless of the efforts of many of us over the years to effect such needed change. Others were and still are of the opinion that those were the best years ever, and so there remains in a rift in this country between people and classes that I likewise fear may not be bridged during what remains of this lifetime.

We were the first generation to grow up with the threat of global annihilation following the bombing of Hiroshima and Nagasaki, Japan on August 6 and August 9, 1945 (more than a year before I was born). Following those horrific events, the arms race among global powers led I believe to a particular fear and paranoia that we (perhaps all life on planet Earth) might be snuffed out at the push of a button.  We learned to "Duck and Cover" ... although had an actual nuclear bomb been dropped in close proximity, that "strategy" would likely have been ineffectual, not to say fatal. I remember very distinctly the entirety of the student body at Childress High School being assembled at the time of the Cuban Missile Crisis in October 1962, when the possibility of a nuclear war between the US and the Soviet Union seemed very real. Fortunately that incipient disaster and others were averted, though the possibility still remains.
 
Our generation was the first to benefit from many advances in medical science, particularly with the dreaded disease polio, when Jonas Salk produced the first polio vaccine in 1955.  We witnessed the first transplant of a human heart into another human by Christiaan Barnard on December 3, 1967. The advance of medical techniques and procedures and curatives over the past several decades has been nothing short of mind-boggling, and the day may be fast approaching when we are actually able to have ourselves cloned.

We marveled, but still felt a frisson of fear at the implications as the Soviet Union sent Sputnik into orbit on October 4, 1957, followed by the first man in space, Russian cosmonaut Yuri Gagarin on April 12, 1961.  Alan B. Shepard became the first American to experience sub-orbital flight, on May 5, 1961.  The space race was on!

President John F. Kennedy inspired us not only to be better people, but to literally reach for the moon. On July 21, 1969 US astronauts Neil Armstrong and Buzz Aldrin became the first men to walk on the lunar surface.  Alas, JFK's is promise as perhaps one of our greatest Presidents was tragically ended with his assassination by Lee Harvey Oswald in Dallas on November 22, 1963 (our graduation year), which plunged the nation into grief and disbelief, comparable I believe to our parents' terrible memories of the attack on Pearl Harbor December 7, 1941 ... the "date that will live in infamy" as President Franklin Delano Roosevelt called it. 

Subsequently the Vietnam War, Watergate, Iran/Contra, the disputed Florida vote count in the 2000 election, the wars in Iraq and Afghanistan, and the election of Barack Obama as our first black President in 2008 tore our generation and others apart, revealing ugly contrasts between those still stuck in the Jim Crow, racist, misogynistic 1950s and those who strive to continue our progress toward full civil rights for all. We covered most if not all of these things in The Times of Our Lives series in several posts to the blogs ... the good, the bad, the ugly and the indifferent.... (See particularly my post on 1968, indexed in the Reflections blog.) Given the results of the 2016 US Presidential and Congressional elections, I fear there are many more years of strife ahead.

On September 11, 2001 we as a nation came together again in shock and sorrow over the terrible loss of life in New York City, Washington DC and Pennsylvania, as well as the shattering of our collective sense of securityAlas, the schisms between right wing (conservative, Republican) and left wing (progressive, Democratic) in the wake of 9/11 deepened the divide between ideologies. Yet I remain hopeful that this chasm will eventually be bridged, to benefit us, and all mankind.

Our generation saw the amazing evolution of the telephone from the time we had to ask a local operator to dial a call for us in our own towns, to the first rotary dial, to touch tone phones, to cell phones which can be carried with us and can at the touch of a keypad almost instantaneously connect us with people all over the globe. 

We who learned to type on old Royal manual typewriters also have witnessed the rise of computers, from those which took a huge room to contain them to personal computers for our home, or to be carried with us, or accessed on those cell phones nearly all of us carry now. As with many things, some may consider the computer and/or its progeny the internet to be mixed blessings.  For all of the amazing things they can do, these electronic wonders (along with television) can also be used for the dissemination of "fake news" (such as the canard that President Obama was born in Kenya, and other scurrilous things).  In these troubled days, it is more important than ever before that we make sure of our facts and the truth, as well as check and cross-check with reliable, credible sources of news before spreading unfounded, untrue rumors.

Television itself also came into general use as we grew up, when we watched our parents put tall, heavy antennas in our back yards to catch a weak signal from one or two stations. Now we live in a world of cable and fiber optics, where we can access literally hundreds of channels, from all over the world, in different languages. And air travel to the far horizons of our world, once only the province of the rich, or the military, has become pretty much available for anyone who is so inclined, within a matter of hours, not the days or months which travel once entailed.

Despite our small-town upbringing and rather homogeneous earlier lives, we did become different people as we grew and learned and matured. Some of us left the confines of our parental homes and of Childress for the wider world as soon as we could, as I did, ultimately traveling to six of the seven continents (and I haven't yet given up on the possibility of Antarctica), and multiple cities and countries, in fulfillment of one of my childhood dreams to explore other worlds, other cultures, other people.

Some of us were content to remain in the familiar surroundings where they were nurtured, while others left Childress for diverse reasons.  Whether they stayed "at home" or moved elsewhere, some retained the mindset they grew up with there of the 1950s and 1960s, while others blossomed into new thoughts and beliefs. In other words, we lived our lives ... for good or ill, for better or worse, in happiness and in sadness, or a mixture of all those things, as people have throughout time.

And now, with a heavy heart and many mixed feelings, I must write that this will be the final post to this blog, and by extension to our previous blogs, Reflections on the Way We Were: The Childress High School Class of 1963; The Class of 1963: Show and Tell; and Short Notes for the Class of 1963, all of which are linked here on the right hand side of this page and/or on the Reflections blog, for anyone who may read this and want to access them in the future, or for those of us who may want to return and reread them for the sake of remembrance and reverie. There is enough of the historian and the scholar and the writer in me to think that some day, perhaps even hundreds of years into the future, someone may stumble upon these writings and memories and thoughts and be absolutely fascinated to discover what a group of people who grew up in a small town in Texas in the latter half of the 20th Century felt and thought and observed through that time, and into the 21st Century ... and how we evolved and changed during those years ... much like historians and scholars have pored over hieroglyphs, and cuneiform tablets, and Dead Sea Scrolls, and cave drawings to try to determine what actually occurred in eons past.

[The thought occurs: Since I believe we live multiple lives, wouldn't it be amazing if I were the "someone" (same soul, different life) who stumbles across these blogs??? Oh, the possibilities, karmic and otherwise.... Snarf!!!]

Unfortunately, since the blogs' creator and my blog partner Nicki Wilcoxson closed this blog on April 6, 2010 (having previously closed the other blogs), and then reopened it on January 18, 2012 for me to begin posting a series of obituaries of our classmates, in addition to my earlier writings on many subjects, the blog has now devolved into a veritable death watch, and as I said in one of those obits, I am beginning to feel like the Angel of Death.... Indeed, I had the particularly difficult task of having to write obituaries not only for Nicki, but for her husband Jim, who I believe fittingly died within ten days of each other, since it was impossible for me or others to think of one without the other. And, given that I have now reached the advanced (and once seemingly impossible, to me anyway) age of 70 (October 18, 2016), it becomes ever more apparent that I am the last voice left to speak for us, at least on these blogs, since I am the only one who can still access them. There are so many wonderful posts and posits and comments in all the blogs, so much life!!!  And I cannot bear the thought of that future scholar or historian finding them, seeing nothing but a lot of death, and perhaps not taking the time to explore the wonderful memories, and experiences, and stories and thoughts that we recorded here.

In short, I think the blogs have been an incredible endeavor, and constitute an incredible record of our life and lives, and I hope somehow they (and we) will be preserved, at least in our words and photographs, if not in our current corporeal bodies.

Before I close, I have a few people I must acknowledge and thank for enriching my life and/or for their contributions to these blogs. First and foremost, to Nicki for her vision and hard work in starting the blogs. Thanks are also due to Linda Kay Bridges Cook, Joe Don Hopkins, Sheila Davis Martinez, Clara Robinson Meek, Raenell Wynn Smith, Charlene Bierschmitt Clouse, Bettye Shahan Bagley, Driscilla Dehtan Storrs, Jim Wilcoxson and others who wrote posts and/or comments to posts to further leave a record of our progress through the days and times of our lives. (A whimsical "thank you" to Guinevere the Druid Goddess, my alter ego who first "came to me" in Journalism class in high school, under whose name and slightly "unhinged" persona I wrote several posts, and to Blog the Troll and Sister Brigid, who still choose to remain anonymous ... snarf!) A very personal thanks to my mentor and friend, Alton Darryl Morris, our Junior English teacher, who also taught Speech and Journalism, and who was the first person to convince me that I might actually have something to say that people might be interested in reading. Darryl also contributed numerous posts and comments to the blogs, and his participation was greatly appreciated.

So, on this last day of December of the year 2016 CE (Common Era) ... Hail and farewell to the Class of 1963 of Childress High School.... Gods and ghosts, spirits and seers, dreamers and believers ... remember always and sing the songs of the people who walked the halls of CHS and graced these blogs, and our incredible saga as a particular generation of people in a country on the third planet from the sun once upon a time, during diverse times.... May we always live in mist and memory....

Jennifer )O(   

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Monday, August 31, 2009

Small Deaths ... Changes ... and Explosions....

The Looking Glass
by Jennifer Johnston


Artist's illustration of bright gamma-ray burst
Nasa Image from Wikipedia Commons, public domain


All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter another. ~Anatole France

Some of you may have noticed that I haven't written for the blog in a while ... some may have been doing the happy dance about that (grin) ... some may not have given it a moment's thought. As it happens, there are many things going on in my life right now which are bringing me some melancholy, a little sadness, a little mourning, but overall a glorious sense of rebirth and just downright joy.

As I have previously opined, failure and/or refusal to change, to be open to change, to move through life's journey and phases and stages without a continually renewed sense of discovery and wonder, lead (I believe) to stagnation at worst, or at best to a self-satisfied complacency, which prevent further growth and development ... and I find that to be a truly sad thought.

Some hold that as one ages, one should slow down, and settle, and accept things as they are, without seeking (or tripping over sometimes) the new and different ... indeed without any desire for the new and different. But as was recently proved to me, I am still capable of surprise and wonder and awestruck delight about new ideas, new friends, new people, new or slightly altered philosophies.

One the greatest facilitators for growth and new knowledge I believe is the Internet in general, and social networking sites like Facebook and its ancillary applications (apps ... like Dog World and Vampire Wars), which have not only opened my world to reconnection and renewal of some relationships with people I knew long ago in Childress, but have given me a whole new outlook and perspective on a couple of particularly important and resonant ideas and considerations in connection with new friends and new branches in my path. And for the most part, I have been overwhelmingly delighted with my experiences in these venues.

Unfortunately along with all of the very, very good things there have been a few occurrences which have not been so pleasant or desirable. I have had to block a couple of people who seem to think that they have the right to invade my Profile page ... my FB home, if you will, my personal space and time ... and leave unwanted and unsolicited messages and Biblical quotations and condemnations because they disapprove of something I have said, or something I find fun, or exciting, or at least mildly amusing. And why these people think they have the right to do such a thing is beyond me. It is indicative of a small mind and intolerance for others, which I find repugnant and abhorrent in the extreme. But apparently such people don't get (still don't get) that I have the right to my opinions, as they have a right to theirs.

As I pointed out to one before I blocked him, I would never dream on going onto someone else's page (or into their home) and leaving screeds about my ideas of life, and if he disapproved of my comments, quizzes, etc. that popped up in his newsfeed, then he had the option of blocking me and/or my news feed ... and I asked him to please leave me alone. He didn't, and I blocked him ... and apparently from what I am told by another friend, he is still railing about me, even though he can't do so directly.

I mean really ... at one point when I was chatting about VW and commenting with some friends, this troglodyte actually told me that he didn't like what I was doing/saying, and that he was "personally offended by vampires" ... his words. As I told him: Dude, lighten up! Get a grip!! It's a game!!!! But apparently this failed to penetrate his thick, concrete, parochial skull ... and so I blocked him, and will continue to block anyone who demonstrates such insensitivity and intolerance.




Hubble Space Telescope image of Wolf-Rayet star WR 124 and nebula
Wolf-Rayet stars may be progenitors of long duration
NASA Imagem Wikipedia Commons, public domain


But for each retro-Neanderthal that one occasionally runs across, I have found three or four genuine treasures (which means at least around 10-12 or more people) with whom I have recently become very close friends, people who will be close to me from this time until I leave this particular existence (and at least one or two or more thereafter ... grin) ... and I am blessed, enriched, enlightened and indeed kvell to a degree that is sometimes absolutely staggering! And as always, I will choose life and love and growth over stasis and the status quo.

We don't all have to agree about everything ... indeed only a minuscule number of us will find a true meeting of the minds (and memories) and complete agreement and affinity with some mirror soul. But when that happens, it is a joy without measure, a sustaining and thrilling lift on this road we all travel ... and the people who come into our lives like this, particularly at this late stage, are valued all the more for gracing and blessing us with their presence and their essence!

I will always choose life and renewal ... glorying in that rebirth and discovery and expansion of consciousness that is so important, so vital, in my life. For those who are happy as they are, without change, that is your choice and your life ... but my life, this life, is mine to live as I see fit....

And this phoenix has risen from its last immolation and is spreading its wings to welcome the next burning, the next sun, the next catalyst, which will lead to even further growth and advancement.... I embrace the incandescent, white-hot fusion of all the elements ... air, earth, fire, water and aether ... and that explosion and regeneration with all the blinding brilliance and searing heat of a thousand suns! I choose life ... this life ... and the next life ... and the next....

Those who can't stand the heat should definitely stay out of the kitchen and away from the Big Bang!

C-est la vie, c'est l'amour ... c'est l'amour de vie ... eternal and ever-lasting.... Small death ... brave new life! Quelle surprise!!! Slow sweet smile ... and kvell kvell kvell....

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